Going by my handy dandy "A Year of Journal Prompts" list, this week is to be what I put as my title. That could take a while. I will try to narrow it down to what i'm feeling right now.
1. My husband is at the very top of my list. I have been sick with a horrid sinus infection since the beginning of December. I am now on round 3 of antibiotics and they aren't working either, sadly to say. I'm waiting on a referral to go through for ENT after I had a CT Scan of my sinuses and it revealed some things. I am in pain all the time and feel like crap constantly. I'm exhausted and grumpy. He is frustrated, I know. But he puts on a good face and has been cooking dinner, thank goodness because I can hardly eat most of the time, although I force myself to. He has been doing other things for me and just letting me be. He does so much for me all the time and always has. We will be married for 13 years next week and he has done nothing but show his love to me throughout. I could not have married a better man and couldn't imagine my life without him...ever. Just thinking about it makes me want to puke.
2. My 3 kids. I have been extremely blessed with my children. They are all beautiful human beings that prove time and again that I don't need to worry that they are learning the things that we are trying to teach them. They are blossoming into great people that are loving and kind. My oldest is funny and sweet and respectful even when we are not around. My middle is sassy and stands up for what she believes in and what she wants with no doubt in her mind and I love that about her. My youngest is silly and emotional and my loving guy. I wouldn't trade anything about them for anything in the world. They are me...they are us...
3. My dogs. Tank and Perry are like children to me. Tank is the biggest baby and the sweetest boy. He is a year old black lab and is so full of energy and fun. All he wants is play and love and he is completely satisfied. Oh, and chew toys...lots and lots of chew toys to demolish. Perry is older, at almost 7, and he is laid back and quiet, calm and reserved. But every once in a while the young guy comes out and I catch him playing with a ball all by himself. I love those moments because it lets me know that he's still able and willing to have fun. See, we had to put down our lab mix, Shadow, in May of 2015. He had lost the ability to walk and they couldn't figure out why or what was wrong with him. He was suffering and we couldn't let that happen. It was the hardest thing i've ever had to do. He was older than Perry and Perry had grown up with him. After he was gone, Perry was alone, his best friend was gone. He got kind of sad and quiet. He stopped playing and grew older. We got Tank at the end of that year and he grew to love him and accept him and they play together now, but it took a while. While he plays with Tank, he still doesn't play on his own or with us. He won't fetch a ball or play tug of war like he used to. It could just be that he doesn't want to or his age. Who knows. But he gets lots of love and attention, even though Tank demands attention ALL the time. They are our family.
4. Friends. I have a couple local friends that I could call in an emergency and know that they would drop everything and help any way they could. I would do the same for them. I have lots of friends that I would go to lunch with or coffee, but not a lot that would do anything for me. These are the friends that i'm most thankful for. Being a military family and moving every 2-3 years on average, our group of friends is rotational just like our duty station. It's hard to start all over and try to find that one core friend you can rely on when shit hits the fan. I have found two and i'm beyond thankful for that. I also have another great group of friends that have provided loads of support throughout the years. I have never met most of them face to face but they are considered my best friends nonetheless. We share our everyday struggles and joyous moments and life's ins and outs. We update each other regularly on everything, we are like a family.
I will stop there because I feel like those are the most important things in my life right now to be thankful for.
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